I am listening to my Chronic Pain playlist while waiting for R to get out of school. I have some edits I want to make to it, but I am just not sure when I will get around to doing it.
I am in such horrible pain today! I am not sure who in my life I can share these things with. I need a better pain support system. Chronic pain is something not everyone can understand. Or wants to understand.
Every step I take is excruciating. Every keyboard stroke hurts. Everytime I shift in my chair hurts. I just hurt!
I don’t need well-wisher’s advice on how to feel better. They don’t know that if it worked, I would have already done it. What I do need is tea and sympathy and reminders that if I keep up with my self-care routines, things will get better. That this, too, shall pass. That this is only a temporary circumstance.
I guess today I will just have to be my own support group. Breaking through the brain fog to write this to myself, and to you, dear reader, listening to supportive music from songwriters and musicians who understand what it is like and have created music from their pain, and just be gentle with myself as every fiber of my being screams out in agony today, reminding me that I have no choice but to take it easy and rest.
So, go and rest is what I now shall do.
The Painful Pagan 